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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Wed, 31 May 2006 17:37:06 GMT

*46^+`This time, I'm mistaken....For handing you a h.e.a.r.t worth breaking..{87*

Had my party last night...I am still uncovering pretzels in the most perculiar of places! Along with 2 WKD soaked Jaffa cakes I put my foot in on the stairs and pieces of quiche still encrusted on my wall (thanks Olly!) :S... Still, was a laugh though, I needed a good piss up, even if my room does stink of popper fumes that I'm blatently getting high off - it was worth it!

And URGH, can't believe GCSE's are upon us, especially with fucking maths coming up...I think I might just spend the exam crying and learning to accept failure.

I seriously don't know what the fuck I've done to my arms, but the muscles in them, my neck and my sholders are absolutely killing me. Maybe it's Karma or something :|

¢¾Are we having fun, yet?...

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 17:40:43 GMT

.`"3&-'Becoming someone else...Everybody says, I ought to get over myself=*~#

Awww My brother and his girlfriend have moved out for good now into their own little flat! I'm gonna miss him, although I'm glad she's gone and the house is a lot quieter already!

I need my knight in shining armour to turn up already, I'm shite when I'm not chasing/going out with someone! Or winning the lottery, a good party or just meeting a nice guy could be good, even though it's a little less dramatic than being swept off my feet. Anything nice and contradicting to my life's current nose-dive would be great!

I got my footless tights and little skirt and I'm trying to get used to them on me because I'm not use to wearing anything that isn't jeans! I look too femenine :P

...¢¾Don't wake me, I plan on sleeping in.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 17:07:06 GMT

*%$8+~Cleansing everything...to forget your love...*57

I was wrong. Things did get more shit. 2 weeks today and he could at least be fucking honest with me. He really doesn't give a shit anymore.

I hate this so much. And I mean all of it.

And I bet my perfect prom dress will die, that's if it even exsists in my size in the first fucking place. That'd just top off everything wouldn't it?

Urgh!

¢¾Just fucking forget it...

Shit...I miss him so much.

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 11:59:28 GMT

~.;$&`The only thing I ever learnt from love...was how to shoot s.o.m.e.b.o.d.y who out drew you..*+=~

Urgh, could things be more shit? Okay, so they probably could, I do still have all my limbs in tact and all, but that's not the point.

I feel like I'm wasting my life away, I just got up and spent 3 hours making myself look pretty for absolutely no one! Literally, all I'm doing is sitting round the house all day, being moody and too lazy to eat. It's nearly 2pm and I haven't had breakfast yet.

What is the point to me? :( And if myspace spazzes one more time I'm going to throw the computer and her fucking face...

¢¾It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah...

Thursday, March 23, 2006

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 19:14:09 GMT

~78^~`I'm just a notch on your b.e.d.p.o.s.t; ...but you're just a line in a song*+#$

Bleh, I am freezing, sure, it may look sunny - but it's still fucking cold!

I can't believe my textiles exam is on Wednesday, I feel so far behind and I don't know how it happened! We had like seven fucking weeks and I seem to have wasted them all away!

I need Dean to get online and cheer me up soon! It doesn't help that my throat hurts too...again!! Was there ever a time when I wasn't ill?! I blame my boyfriend and his silly germ-carryingness. I feel so poor, I had to make some proper shopping list to work all my money out and even then I ended up short because I'd forgotten my Dad's Birthday! Grrr, how dare he have a birthday :P

And by the way, I think I'm hooked on MySpace. And eww I keep doing wet sneezes and I just did one on the screen :(

¢¾Moonlight is fading...from out of your soul....

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 21:27:12 GMT

>^$&_+I'm in love with a guy who's in love with the w o r l d....Oh I can't help but f.o.l.l.o.w`*^~'

Eeep! I'm sweet sixteen tomorrow and I can't wait! I'm so excited about what Dean's got me!

And I'm hoping shopping in London will be awesome too! And I can't believe how close my anniversary is...It really doesn't feel like a year! Everyone better be nice to me tomorrow! Love xx

¢¾Someday he is bound to go away....and stay over the rainbow.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 17:32:31 GMT

:%~*`And it's been a while since I've seen the way...the c.a.n.d.l.e.s light your face..'?.¬&$

I am really ill! I'm even iller than I was when I dragged myself through mock week! And despite the fact my nose is unbreathable and I've got a really bad cough some people still insist on smoking a cigarette around me every 15 minutes....

I'm going to try and drag myself in tomorrow, for some reason I've got it into my head that I've missed loads of work, or that something amazing has happened. I'm gonna be so disappointed if I manage to get in, aren't I?

Oh well at least I get to finally see Nat's new hair...and maybe get to cough on it a bit in Textiles. If I can I'm planning to fall asleep in Graphics...although the boys will probably do something horrible - like glue my face to the work bench or draw on me. :(

♥Baby, you still give me butterflies...

Friday, January 13, 2006

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 22:07:56 GMT

[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly, even only sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. (i burn easy)
[ ] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I've had braces.
[ ] I wear contacts
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[x] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed a class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job (from school...Textiles cupboard, weyhey!)
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/illness.
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[x] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've been an abuse victim.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.(EEEWWWW MILK!)
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[x] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten Sushi.(EEWWW FISH!)
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of commitment.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[x] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality

[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I love to flirt.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've been hugged by a stranger
[x] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[x] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted

Drugs/Alcohol

[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I've passed out from drinking.
[x] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I'm a stoner.
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic. [x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[ ] I see a therapist.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[x] I hate funerals.
[x]I've seen someone dying.
[x]Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ]Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[x] I've attempted suicide.
[ ]I've written a eulogy for myself.

Political/Social Attitudes

[x] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[ ] I'm very outgoing.
[x] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[x] I'm liberal.
[x] I don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[x]I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I'm religious.
[x] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random

[x] I can sing well.
[ ]I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair
[x] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x]I bake well.
[x] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[x] I eat fast food weekly
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x]Iam online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I play video games
[x] I'm good at remembering faces.
[x] I'm good at remembering names
[x] I'm good at remembering dates.
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest

Do you like chinese food?
Love it!

How big is your bed?
Lickle single.

Is your room clean?
Except for clothes, random scraps of paper and pencils everywhere - yes.

Favorite comedians?
Lee Evens, Jimmy Carr, The guy from Peep Show whose name I never remember.

Do you smoke?
I quit at the end of July.

Does anyone like you?
I's like to think my boyfriend does.

Would you rather receive amazing oral sex or have amazing sex?
Both please. Nah, probably sex.

Sleep with or without clothes on?
Depends on temperature and whether or not i'm alone.

Who sleeps with you every night?
Dean could if he wanted...

Do long distance relationships work?
Nope - especially not for me.

Pancakes or French Toast?
Pancakes

Do you like coffee?
Yup, I love coffee!

How do you like your eggs?
Any way really, but I like a yolk that's half hard half soft.

Do you believe in astrology?
Yeah

last person you talked to on the phone?
Harpreet who scared the shit out of me by randomly ringing me at the most awkward time possible.

McDonalds or Burger King?
McDonalds. Although fries are good everywhere

Number of pillows?
2 normal ones and one V-shaped one.

Last thing you ate?
Vegetable malayan at phil's birthday meal.

Last thing you bought?
Dinner ^^

What are you hearing right now?
A typhoo advert.

What kind of jelly do you like on your PB &J sandwich?
I hate peanut butter. And we call 'jelly' jam in England....

Can you play pool?
Yep, and pretty well for a girl too

Do you know how to swim?
Yep :)

Favorite ice cream
I love any ice cream! But ice cream from Thorntons is the best!

Tell me a random fact:
I think I'm going to throw up...and yet I still want my slice of Phil's birthday cake.

Ever attend a theme party?
The theme was alcohol? Does that count?

Ever do a keg stand?
:S surrree...

Craziest place you've slept after a night of drinking?
Either a park or the hospital bed?

What is your favorite season?
Winter :D

What is the first music video you ever saw?
As if I can remember that, prolly something retro like blondie.

Last time you laughed at something stupid?
I laughed to myself on the bus at the idea of me tripping up when I got on.

Wake up next to anyone?
Last Saturday when Dean stopped.

Best thing about winter?
Snow!!!!! I want to live in a beautiful snow globe again!

Name a couple of favorite colors?
Pink, blue

How old are you?
15, 16 soon though :P

What month is your birthday ?
March

Favorite Dave Matthews Band song (if you have one)?
Nope.

What are you doing this weekend?
Well I've been out for a meal, I'm going up the pub tomorrow, prolly waking up with a lickle handover and then seeing my gorgeous boyfriend on Sunday. Good times!

Thursday, December 29, 2005

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 15:08:26 GMT

~'$^¬Don't leave me standing here...Among the dead+]~¢'*

I <3 winter!

I looked out my window this morning and it was so beautiful, it looked like everything had been dusted with icing sugar. I love feeling like I'm living in a big beautiful snow globe.

Meh, Christmas wasn't as bad as I'd expected. Although I need to stop drinking, for three days I drank nothing but drinks with alcohol in. The hangover afterwards will teach me not to drink away boredom.

I need monies so I can buy myself pretty things for non-uniformed study leave and post 16.

Hope everyone had a good Christmas, and hope you have a happy new year.

...♥When I fall asleep...your face is all I see♥....

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 21:06:39 GMT

~:*^+..."S.e.e.p through the crack under my door...When I am locked in...*^&$=

Jesus! What's with all the teenage angst in school lately kids?

Cheer the fuck up. Now.

I dunno why but everyone seems to be mad at someone else, but me. I can't stay mad, I just get over it too quickly, or forget that I'm meant to be angry.

And I don't like how quickly the mocks have crept up. I'm not sure about other people, But I think I'll be royally fucked in some of these exams :( I'll blatently forget about revision, and just ditch it for going up the pub instead.

This is short, but I don't want to get angsty.

~+*¢¾...I told you I would return when the robin makes his nest... But I ain't never comming back...